The lost battle....

  

If you are on a personal connection, like at home, you can run an anti-virus scan on your device to make sure it is not infected with malware.But what happened when you're become a void or virus  in ur own connection  And  will  you able to fight against with it. 

Dear me....... 

  I gave up when I realised I wasn’t fighting for our relationship anymore, I was fighting a war with myself. I was the only warrior on the battlefield of our love,she had walked away a long time ago. That day I put down my weapons and accepted defeat.

You can called me, as a victim of a lost combat,but I learned one very important thing. Life is composed of voids. They are these deep, dark spaces that engulf you in a whirlpool. It’s like falling in a deep pit and remaining motionless in there. I don’t know the way out and i  don’t care about finding it. Staying in the pit is better than facing the reality. I see the world around me and i pretend to be a part of it. But my  mind is far away, it lurks in the pit; it is stuck in my past. It’s a strange feeling, to exist in two worlds at the same time. Things are happening around me, the world is moving, but I'm  at a stand still. I feel like a numb.

Dear me..... 

If i ever find myself in this dark void, know this, it’s an illusion. I haven’t really fallen in a pit; i m the pit.  I'm not inside a void, I'm  become the void and only i have the power to destroy it. I know i don’t have to fight a battle with someone or something outside of me. My enemy lies inside. I'm the  one stopping yourself from being happy, because a part of me is living in the world that doesn’t exist anymore. 

Dear me.......

The Keeper Of My Heart, The Mother Of My Unborn Children, 🥺She Had To Walk Away Temporary In Order To Find Me Forever...

    Thanks for reading..............