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Dear me- im sorry

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Dear me,  Hey Dear, i m sorry " That you tried so desperately to fix other., when your own hands were shaking. Right now i know its really hard. You probably staring at the screen crying, your eyes out asking yourself 'why did i do this?  This is not what I imagined " I realise there’s no point addressing this letter to you. You was the one that burned down everything to the ground. You will set ablaze the last shreds of my memory like dreams too. I can’t let you do that, they are all I have left.  I don’t know if all ex lovers possess the power to haunt your dreams. I’ve only had one and you visits more often than I’d like.i wants to date with you for rest of my life. But It killed me to accept that we had broken up. I'm sorry that i didn't give you enough time to heal, that i let you seal the wound of everyone, else while your own were bleeding.  I 'm sorry that there were days when smiling hurts but you forced yourself to Lough. So that no one had to wor...

The weight of my books......

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   Basically Iam student not  a criminal and  not against of my friend(book). I just want justice  & freedom. My parents, my teacher &great person who are connect with my life, always told me that- Books are the best friend of student. Every book we read has the power to transpose us into a different world filled with several amazing characters. Books can increase the power of our imagination and can act as a gate that opens doors to a dream world, far from the harsh realities of real life. When you open a book, you open a new world”. But  the question is how far   it's true? If books and student are both best friend of each other's  why always student only give the test to proof their friendship? Why anyone not ask to my friend(book) about his dedication towards our friendship.  Why he(book ) is always right &why should we have to proved that we are not wrong ?         My teacher always Says-book increase sel...

Dear (world or society) .

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  Dear (world or society)                        I am not the one who start the war.But  this time you mess with the wrong guy and make me the one who will destroy you.  The desire to rule the world is now fired. Until I meet you, I'm searching for the reason behind my birth. Now I found the reason not to defeat.  When whole  world waiting for my defeat.  I'm not believe in failure is 1st step towards success , this types of quotes would  seems nice in Facebook, watsapp and social media as motivational status. Because The whole world who celebrate your success, that same world would be waiting to take over and vanquish after your  one failure. They try to knock me down ,But I will rise again. I won't stay down, I will rise again they might win a battle , but they will never win my will. They've knocked me down before and Here. I am still stand still going stronger than yesterday wiser . D...

The 1st question of my life...

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  WHO I AM &WHAT IS MEANING OF MY EXISTENCE  ?    THE 1st Question of my life is still unanswerable.                               I'm typically struggling with my identity   and searching for a core sense of my existence. The irony is that the more i seek to identify who i am,the more I confused with my self.  Am I a  student, a husband,  a mother,a friend, an doctor, a passenger or a patient? What is the truth of my identity? is that I am a  mother because  I have a child only?  I am a husband because i have a wife only?   I'm  student because I have teacher only?  A passenger because I'm  traveling?   All  my identities, everything  is just because someone  is there only? Then what is meaning of my independent , if all  my identity dependent on something else. Then, who  i am?   Imag...

When I meet myself.....

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   You and I,  I and You—we lived, we laughed, we loved, but we could never be ‘we’ because we were—I and You.you believe that my imagination is stronger than knowledge.  That myth is more potent than history.  My dreams are more than your fact. My believe and hope always triumph over ur experience. The Laughter is only cure for grief. And I'm not coward, no matter what happens Im always know when I need to  be.......  Pain is not always present in tear.  Sometimes it present in smile...  I wish i could explain u,  How the sound of ur words act as a vaccine for millions. How ur smile become the reason for many  smile. How every time im with u im feel complete.  But im sorry I wasn't the 1st and i will not be the last.the difference between u and me is that, im addicted to you , i have tasted ur mind . And i cannot forgot its flavour .  Despite of everything ur become a cancer tumor that i never want back. 

BUT I COULDN'T TELL HER

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    My silence is fielld with secrets...  BUT I COULDN'T TELL  HER🥺 It started raining hard, the monsoon had arrived. I had never found rains any  tempting.  But this time, I anticipated something new, something better, something drastic, something special and that too for myself. It had been about 2 and half weeks that was had been talking. I was Continuesly imagine her, when like an old letters that comes every evening im waiting for her msg. A current like sensation is just flowing in body while I'm waiting for her msg. And I'm just hopelessly waiting for the moment when i will be meet her and touch her that same soft hands.  After gathering some courage i ask her, if i come visit to ur city will u meet me?  She always reply to my msg instantly. But this tt situation is something different. Already 5 good minutes almost gone. I started regretting of my question almost instantly.  But i was wrong -not for asking her but in regretting it....

Coz i need u.........

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  Dear me                I am sorry.  I'm sorry that you gave all of your time and effort to people that didn't give the same amount back. I'm sorry that there were nights when you cried yourself to sleep and no one bothered to understand why. And so sorry that I did not love you,like you deserved to be loved. I tagged your memories here because I want you to read this. I am very lucky to meet you, to know you and to have you. You are one of those best gifts I've ever received . Thank you for being there in times of need and you never get tired listening to all of my nonsense chikas and dramas in life. Thank you for the very beautiful and crazy, happy moments. I really owe you a lot. I just want you to know that you're so precious to me and I really miss you right now. Dear me.................................