I Was Free

 Dear me

The photograph of love is sometimes so big that you can’t fit it into the frame of your relationship. If you force it, you are sure to lose some of it.or

Maybe most of it.

So lets go....... 

Let's go and left our memories behind. If  you think, took the step to delete me off of everything. Threw away my photos from ur phone. Helps u to cleared me from your life.but still I held you. As tightly as I possible could. With every inch you pulled away, I pushed forward even harder. I could not even try to grasp what a world without you in it would be like. I refused to figure out how.

I know as much as it stung, as much as it hurt me that we didn’t get the happy ending I always wanted; I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. I wasn’t ready to let go of the comfort I felt with you. I wasn’t ready to throw away the pain you were causing me if that meant I had to learn to live a life without you.but

But still let's go .........Im not enough i know.... Its hurts to be half loved. Let's go...... For ur happiness. .... For ur smile........and. For u..... 

But this time I'm not sure I'm able to promise you for anything............  

Few years later........................................... 

When meet incidentally, its feels like a small child getting Candy's of his wish. But But i had diabetes of you..... 

I was free.

I was free from the pain that you were causing me.I was free from the one sided relationship with you so its no long dragged me through.

I was free from the name-calling, the belittling, and the feelings that I was never good enough.I was free from the fighting. The arguments that would leave me outside from my friend circle. 

I was free from the lies. I no longer had to wonder what you were telling the truth about. I didn’t have any intrest to go through your phone to see what one of your exes you texted  this time or mention u some where. 

I was free from the lectures from my friends about you. I no longer had to hear from everyone important to me the reasons why I shouldn’t give you another chance and all of their concerns of the negativity you brought too my life.

I was free from the toxicity of  ur love was. I no longer have to spend days beating myself up over the thoughts of why loving someone couldn’t be enough.I was free from all of the awful things that I tried so hard to desperately hold on to.

For the first time in after that day, I had finally let go of all of the things that were breaking me down piece by piece every single day. I was finally ready to be myself again. I was ready to be healthy.

I was  free.....